Saturday, August 28, 2010

Elusive Peace.

Sometimes peace is so elusive. A rough week, little sleep and being sick don't help in the least. And sometimes, when everything except peace threatens to overwhelm me, I find I just stop. Stop eating. Stop breathing. Stop looking where I need to look.

And I just wait.

Wait for what I don't really know. A sign. A verse. Comfort. Peace. Anything to soothe a restless and tired soul that feels trampled and achy.

Sometimes it comes in songs. Sometimes it comes in notes from friends. Sometimes it comes in a chat with my mom. Sometimes it comes from seeing an old friend in an unexpected place at the perfect time. Sometimes it comes from driving fast. Sometimes it comes from a hug.

But it always comes from prayer.

Not the busy, rushed prayer where I try to cram my words in to what I think I should be saying. The prayer where I simply be and ask for peace and healing. It's the hardest prayer, because it requires totally letting go. And that's not easy.

One of my favorite things to do is let my Bible just fall open and read verses. Today I had quite a few. The one I read right before starting to type this? "O man greatly beloved, fear not, peace be with you; be strong and of good courage." Daniel 10:19. Perfect.

And a song I heard on the way to ice cream today...


For those of you viewing on your iPhone, iPad or other non-Flash friendly device, here's the link to the YouTube video...By Your Side.

Peace to you. To all of us.

2 comments:

Sue said...

Oh Brandi, you've made me cry this morning - or rather that beautiful song did!!
You've had a tough week haven't you and yet you can still reach out to us!
Thank you.
I've forwarded the link to my only sister who is struggling with her faith at the moment, who knows where your blog will lead to! I also sent the YouTube clip to other loved ones who are facing difficulties - health, loneliness, grief.
Thank you again x x x

Gym Mama said...

I'm so glad you liked it, Sue! I came upon it last night and it was truly the perfect song at the moment. Great reassurance! =)